My name is Kamille, I was born in June 30, 1997 which means
I am officially sixteen years old as of today. I am the only child in our family. The people around me were
very protective and that meant that there had been too many restrictions
regarding the things I do as they always keep a close eye on me. I used to be a
cautious and quiet little girl because of that. I seldom engage in activities
that involve a big number of people because I suck at socializing. Staying
inside the shelter of our home watching television was probably all I ever did.
That was until I started going to school of course.
I studied in Ladislao
Diwa in grade school and since I was their only child, my Mother made sure that
I did well in school. She taught me everything in advance so eventually I got
into the so-called “FL” class. I was glad to be a part of it because I was able
to bring out some confidence and through this new-found confidence I gained a lot
of friends and got the chance to improve myself and my skills. I was living a
fairly peaceful and ordinary life until my Father got ill. As far as I can
remember, I was still a fifth-grader when I found out that he had lung cancer. The
Doctors told us that he only had several months to live. I was not ready to
lose him yet so I did not make any move to spend more time with him and thought
that things were still normal. A week later, he was suddenly admitted to the
Hospital for severe stomach pain. I did not think it would be a life-changing
situation. I felt so worried about him but I refused to go with them afraid to
see him hurting. After several hours my Mom talked me in to coming with her
saying that my Father might not make it any longer. I finally agreed to go but as
I set foot at my Father’s Hospital room, my tears began to flow like
waterfalls. Seeing him lying there in bed, lifeless and not breathing made my
heart shatter into pieces. It pained me
so much to know that I was not there with him when he needed us the most. I was
so selfish that I only thought of my own feelings and forgot to consider his. As
a daughter, I failed to make my Father feel how important he is and that is the
biggest regret that I have in my life. I was tormented because of what happened
but as time pass by and with the help of people around me, I have grown to
accept the fact that he is gone and that I needed to move on.
Not long after, I
finished grade school and resumed my secondary education at Cavite National
High School. There, I met new friends whom I later on considered as my sisters
from another Mother. It was in the beginning of the school year when we first
came across a Korean music video, and since we all love music, curiosity got the best of us. We started to do a research about Korea and the Korean music industry. We found out so much about it that later on we found ourselves so in to it as we became "Fangirls". Apart from reading novels and conducting group studies, my friends and I loved to dance as well so we started practicing the choreography of some Kpop groups, we've tried to cover Girl's Generation and SHINee but was not able to be active because of the schedules. I can say that some parts of me changed when I became a Fangirl. Some may think that it is a bad influence, but for me, it is more of an inspiration to get me going. Even my Mother is a Fangirl. We both think of Kpop as a stress reliever. I listen to Korean songs when I'm depressed. I dance to the tune of their songs or even spazz about my bias when I feel stressed and I will immediately feel better.
Though I was not given the opportunity, I always wanted to travel and discover new things. I'd like to meet new people and learn about other culture that is why I decided to carry on my College life in Lycuem of the Phillippines University as a Tourism student. I believe that through this school's credibility I will learn everything that I need to know in order to graduate and finish my studies with ease so that I could reach up for my dreams and make them come true.
If somebody asks what my future goals are or what my dreams are. . . . I would probably answer him like this. . . ."My goal is to finish my studies and find a decent job so that after I pay my parents some gratitude I can someday go to Korea and see my bias perform in front of my eyes." Some may be curious as to why I like Kpop so much and all can say is that. . . This is where I found happiness and contentment, this is what made me complete when all else started to fail and it is what made me, my friends and my family one.
